Sending Light and Love through Anger

I am really angry about Ebola spreading.
I am angry that the CDC led people (nurses, doctors, cleaners) to believe they were safe treating ill patients.
I'm really upset that they allowed someone within direct contact of a sick Ebola patient to travel.
I'm infuriated, but I'm sending them LIGHT and LOVE.
They have a lot more to do and I hope they will do it with grace.

I have mixed feelings for the nurse who traveled to Ohio possibly carrying Ebola.
She cared for a patient who was dying, believed that by following hospital protocol she would not become ill, and then may have carried this horrible virus to her loved ones.
I'm mad at her for being selfish and attending the wedding.
She may become deathly ill and has a long road of pain to overcome.
I am sending her LIGHT and LOVE.

When I was 8 months pregnant with my first child I decided not to go on a family vacation. I really wanted to be at the beach and be with my family. I did not however look forward to the 14 hours of travel in a car. I decided not to go. I received some flack from my family. There were feelings of me being over cautious. It turned out two weeks later it was suggested I lay low on the couch and drink plenty of water due to low amniotic fluid in my womb. It was a wise decision to be cautious for my unborn child.
We can never know the outcome, but we can try to make wise decisions. I hate to live in fear and not live, but sometimes missing an event may be sad for a short time but a small sacrifice for the health of others.

Because this nurse traveled, so many other people have been affected. Events cancelled. Schools closed for cleaning. A whole flight of passengers placed in a state of not knowing.  Fear. Caution.
I am sending them LIGHT and LOVE. 

Today I'm thinking about all of the people involved, those who have read the news, for my friends and loved ones, my coworkers, and the people who are yet to contract this virus in our country and over seas.
I am picturing LIGHT and LOVE encircling them and praying that this too shall pass.

In my own selfishness today, I encircled myself and my little ones with LOVE and Comfort.  I coated my boys in coconut oil mixed with On guard essential oil.  We baked cookies, continued our bonfire in the rain, roasted wet hot dogs, and drank warm tea with cookies to warm our bodies and hearts.
And I will keep sending LIGHT and LOVE!

Fall days 2

Fall days 1

Grateful for this

I feel full of gratitude today:

1: For my husband: He goes to work every weekday while the rest of us slumber. I know he would love to sleep in.  But he supports us, plays us beautiful music on his guitar, creates stories just for us, and he dreams...

2: For Family and food. Nana brought us an organic whole chicken which cooked in the crockpot while I was at work. I'm now pulling off the tender meat and adding the bones back to simmer over night. It smells wonderful!

3: I'm glad tonight for big stores that stay open late. I drove 5 minutes out of my way at 10:30pm to pick up rabbit food. It was so much easier than dragging my little ones through a store in the morning.

4:For friends who come together and create good energy. 

5: For finding the guidance of Michealmas in my shower. It brought me joy to see that St. Michael instilled the courage necessary for one of my little guys to capture the dragon. 

And made me chuckle.

See picture below.

So glad we Share a Birthday

Dawn: Happy Birthday

You plan to succeed.

In parenting, in love, in future adventures.

You plan so you can enjoy time.

With loved ones, littles ones, and new ones.

You plan to have fun.

On vacations, creating, on one day.

You hope for so much.

For love, happiness, security.

You hope for so many.

By giving, by making, by being kind.

You hope for us.

For cherished moments and savored pasts.

You love beyond.

For your family, our family, and community.

You love always 

And remind others of their virtues.

You love selflessly

And listen even when your tired. 

You spin a web of positivity around you through your planning, hoping, and love.

I wish for everyone a friend like you. Thank you for being you and for being extraordinary.

So glad I get to be with you on this journey. You make it so much more beautiful.

Love,

Me

Last year

http://sewingseedsandgiggles.blogspot.com/2013/09/why-god-gave-me-twin.html

This is the only picture I can find of us in it.

We must get more sister pictures this year!

The bunnies

Our newest family members.

Rocket and Bouncer.

Goodbye Sammy

I remember the day we brought Sammy and Soma home. Here is the link of the first days.

http://sewingseedsandgiggles.blogspot.com/2012/11/chicken-day.html

http://sewingseedsandgiggles.blogspot.com/2012/12/chickens-and-boys-on-roam.html

http://sewingseedsandgiggles.blogspot.com/2013/05/chicken-coop-remodel.html

Sammy was the most gentle chicken.  She did not mind if the boys carried her around the yard.  They could make a roost for her anywhere, place her there, and she would stay and keep them company.  Just a couple of weeks ago a neighbor stopped to talk and my eldest propped her on top of a tricycle inside the wagon.  Our neighbor thought is was the sweetest thing that our chickens were tame and did not mind being carried.  Sammy was a bit unusual. She was raised by the gentlest family I know and loved dearly by my little boys.  She was 4 years old.

Sammy was the lead chicken for some time.

Sammy's first days with us

feeding Sammy

This week we said a long good bye to her.
She was amongst 6 boys on Tuesday at play group.  I was talking with another mother and she was only in my periphery.  Then another mother told me that she had thrown up.
The poor thing.  I lifted and examined her.  I could not tell if anything was hurt. She was calm and did not seem to be harmed.  I put her away in the coop.  Right where I placed her she stayed for 24hours.  She did not move to eat or drink. The next afternoon we gave her a space all her own with a soft bed, and water and food she could reach without moving.  My boys gathered greens for her and pet her comb.   Her back started to look arched and I suspected that was the cause of her distress.  I explained to the boys that Sammy was dying and we just needed to make her comfortable.  My eldest insisted I get her medicine and that we nurse her back to health.  It was somewhat heartbreaking.  I was not going to take Sammy to the vet.  I've been trying to figure out for a year how I was going to oust the oldest two birds.  The boys did not want them to be for stew. They were their first pets...
So I quietly asks friends the best way to put her out of her misery.  We left the door to the cage open just in case a fox would like to have an easy dinner and take care of the misery for us.
Each morning I was surprised to see her. We refilled her water.  She hadn't eaten any food.
On Saturday  the boys and I dug a deep hole between our blueberry bushes.  I explained that when Sammy died we would bury her in the hole, say a prayer, and she would go to the earth and heaven.
My eldest was ready to put her in right away.  It was a good transition to acceptance for him.
Then I went to my serving job and it was too late (1:20am) to put her in the feed bag with a hole cut for head and my tree loppers.  I said before I went to sleep, "Tomorrow I will..."
Upon awakening, I looked out the window at the cage and it was empty. I put my boots on and inspected the yard.  No signs of distress, no feathers, no Sammy.
I explained to the boys that a fox must have had her for his dinner.  They were OK with that.
The hole was a mud haven for much fun the following day, yet to be filled in.
Goodbye Sammy, thank you for blessing our family with eggs, cuddles, and love.